An emotion of feelings..... I wish I could be a better writer, to explain my feelings.

We received and email from our agency last night. They have a "situation" for use to review. I hate that they call it a situation, but then whats a better term for it? Emotional Overload? Testing of Faith? HA, Anyway, We read the information, which wasn't much. We had to tell them if we wanted our profile sent because it was a little different than what we had described as what we were looking for in our adoption.

Our agency had been contacted by another agency which has had a child born on November 17. A very small infant, that seems to be in great health. No drug or alcohol used during pregnancy, and had apgar scores of 9,9. The only thing is, that if we get selected, it adds more to our fees than we had anticipated because we would then have to pay the other agency their fees, medical, and other expenses, plus what we have already paid in with Our agency and a closing /contacting fee. Whew, not sure that makes sense at all...

As much as we want a child, we were hesitant because of one factor in the situation. We both crawled onto our bed, and discussed all the options. Scared, unsure and confused were at the top of our list. Also, we are thrilled to have already gotten a referral as soon after being approved with the agency. We chose to send our profile letter. I know that by sending it, this doesn't mean we will be selected, just an opportunity. We still would have to be matched and then would have more information to review before me make a decision about this child.

What an exciting day! We walk by Faith, not knowing the unseen. We both are firm in our belief that if this is the child for us, that God will allow and provide all we need to make the decisions He wants us to.

Have a great day~