An emotion of feelings..... I wish I could be a better writer, to explain my feelings.

We received and email from our agency last night. They have a "situation" for use to review. I hate that they call it a situation, but then whats a better term for it? Emotional Overload? Testing of Faith? HA, Anyway, We read the information, which wasn't much. We had to tell them if we wanted our profile sent because it was a little different than what we had described as what we were looking for in our adoption.

Our agency had been contacted by another agency which has had a child born on November 17. A very small infant, that seems to be in great health. No drug or alcohol used during pregnancy, and had apgar scores of 9,9. The only thing is, that if we get selected, it adds more to our fees than we had anticipated because we would then have to pay the other agency their fees, medical, and other expenses, plus what we have already paid in with Our agency and a closing /contacting fee. Whew, not sure that makes sense at all...

As much as we want a child, we were hesitant because of one factor in the situation. We both crawled onto our bed, and discussed all the options. Scared, unsure and confused were at the top of our list. Also, we are thrilled to have already gotten a referral as soon after being approved with the agency. We chose to send our profile letter. I know that by sending it, this doesn't mean we will be selected, just an opportunity. We still would have to be matched and then would have more information to review before me make a decision about this child.

What an exciting day! We walk by Faith, not knowing the unseen. We both are firm in our belief that if this is the child for us, that God will allow and provide all we need to make the decisions He wants us to.

Have a great day~

We're approved!

Wow~ Watching time fly has been a long experience. We started our paperwork process in July '07 and had everything turned in by the first week of September'07. The piles of paper, the questions to answer, the time and prayer into each answer. We both had made it our top proriety to get the paperwork finished quickly. We sent our package in, and our homestudy was sent also. We recived a call letting us know they had all the paperwork and the approval process would begin. The agency said it would take 6-8 weeks for approval.

We waited each day, wondering if we would get the news, and nothing came. It was the 8th week, and I had called to check in with the ageancy, they said it was still in the approval process and they would call me when it was finished. Work for me had been crazy, keeping up with things because my mind has been else where every day, and I had taken days off to get "our" work finished. I was working late Tuesday night preparing for our annual holiday open house at the shop, and my husband calls me. What a awful day it has been, we both agreed. He said he had some news, both good and bad, which would I want first. HA, how could things get any worse, give me the bad. I could almost see the smile through the phone. He said, well, we have a large check to mail out. My reply was, how much, who is it for, what have you bought!(ha ha) He said, do you remember how much the 2nd payment to the agency is? I could not control my tears, they ran down my face, I laughed and cried with joy. We had received our letter to confirm we were approved with the agency.

I locked the doors at the shop and started driving home. The feeling of one step closer was wonderful. My 20 minute drive was busy talking with my Savior. Thanking him for allowing us to be approved. What a awesome drive home! I called all my family to let them know we have stepped forward one place.

When I arrived home, he gave me the letter. Inside was a cute little stork, that said, You have been approved and we are now searching for our stork to bring your bundle of joy home to you! I tote this cut out stork around with me, with its blue and pink checked ribbon, I proudly show everyone!

I guess now, I will learn what waiting is, even though I want the phone call today! Right now! I also know, that God has led us this far, and in His time is when we will recieve the call. I will wait and give praise for the things that are to come!

As soon as I figure out how to post pictures, I will add our approval stork!

Okay, so here I go...let's jump in and start learning this blog spot I have! Where to start.....

My husband and I have been married for 12 years, we live in a wonderful small town that I grew up in that is close to all my family. We have tried for years to start our family, with out any luck. I have taken test after test, medicine after medicine, prayer after prayer and still nothing has worked for us to have a child. We both want a child/children but have always thought it would happen in time.

After several attempts of private adoptions ending up in heart break we have chose to file for adoption with an agency. This process started July 01, 2007. We have completed all the paper work, homestudy and other items needed to get started with the process. So here we are...waiting and still wanting, but also beliveing in faith that God has a child for us, and in His time, we will recieve the gift that is waiting for us.